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Thank You For Your Childhood
I feel somethings hug my waist behind me
Small fragile arms and hands
A Buzzcut head and dimples with a smirk
Lonely ears that listen to the silence
I get down with one knee
My younger self hugs me in tears
I hold back mine
He hugs me tight grabbing my shirt
I hear his pain
I hear his worry
I felt his sadness
I felt his fears
“Are we still alone?” He asked
“We were never alone,” I replied with a smile
“Will we ever be loved?”
“We always have been,” as I shake my hand on his head
I wipe away his tears as they fall
He does that same to me as I realize I didn’t hold back mine
He looks at me with amazement
Seeing how much I have changed
And me seeing how much I have been alone
We both still feel the warming love we always have been carrying
I tell him “The way you view the world hasn’t changed in the way I see it now,”
And he tells me “a rose with the softest petals have the most sharpest thorns,”
A warm crescent smile on both of our faces
Be both knew how alone we’ve felt
We knew that the world wasn’t going to give us a smooth ride
We both never lost our sense of imagination
I hold his tiny hand smooth and soft
He holds my hand with his rough and big palm
“Have you’ve been this wise that young?” I asked him
“Hey you know yourself like I knew myself,” he says as he walks away
I look at him and before he’s gone I yell at him
“HEY WAIT!”
He turns and looks at me
And I simply say
“Thank you for your childhood,”
He runs back and hugs me one more time
He hold my face and are eyes open wise
Our tears dripping down like a leaking faucet
He closes his eyes
And so do I
I open them
I feel him fade
I open them, to find a rose petal
A rose Petal flowing to the floor
As I pick it up
It’s as soft as can be
Deaths Last Life
This world was a beautiful lie
This orb that floats in the void of nothin
Feeling it’s home from within
A weapon incubating from within
Destroying itself into dust
The last life I hold in my hand
A soul rose from the world it was created from
Growing its roots for a new life
This world that was created just to be destroyed by itself
A suicide that effected everything that had life in it
She didn’t deserve this… did she?…
Being the first soul here
Seeing her grow
Having thousands of years of grief leading to what has created me…
I shouldn’t have been here
I shouldn’t have been created
But it’s nice to have one last look again
Her beauty, the life she has let in
The life I take out from…
But I’m surprised the life she has created is capable of understanding how I feel
I was here to confort her
As she grief’s
The pain she has suffered
I give her peace
I give her acceptance
I give her love
She gave me life
I companied her death
Saving what legacy I was created from
I bring a new creation with what she has given me
Love Me Like A Woman
“Tho I know your love wasn’t meant for me
I am not a woman
But I wish…
I wish for you to love me like one
So it wouldn’t wound me
Knowing you could never love me as a man
My body is cursed keeping me away from you
A discord within my soul and the world around it
If only I was a woman
It would’ve been easy for you to love me
It would’ve been easy to love each other
But this breaks us apart
Love me like a woman
So it can be easy for me to love you
Tho this manly body is a disguise
A disguise hiding something gentle
Tho every time
Again and again
I end up hurting
A lonely pain I suffer
No one else can fathom
Fathom what feels like thousands of years of this pain
This feeling that kills me
destroying myself from the inside
Knowing I couldn’t win over your love
I am a man damn it
But I beg you my love
Love me like a woman
So it can be easy for me to love you
Tho this manly body is a disguise
A disguise hiding something gentle
It was the only reason you fell for me in the first place