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Thank You For Your Childhood

I feel somethings hug my waist behind me

Small fragile arms and hands

A Buzzcut head and dimples with a smirk

Lonely ears that listen to the silence

I get down with one knee

My younger self hugs me in tears

I hold back mine

He hugs me tight grabbing my shirt

I hear his pain

I hear his worry

I felt his sadness

I felt his fears

“Are we still alone?” He asked

“We were never alone,” I replied with a smile

“Will we ever be loved?”

“We always have been,” as I shake my hand on his head

I wipe away his tears as they fall

He does that same to me as I realize I didn’t hold back mine

He looks at me with amazement

Seeing how much I have changed

And me seeing how much I have been alone

We both still feel the warming love we always have been carrying

I tell him “The way you view the world hasn’t changed in the way I see it now,”

And he tells me “a rose with the softest petals have the most sharpest thorns,”

A warm crescent smile on both of our faces

Be both knew how alone we’ve felt

We knew that the world wasn’t going to give us a smooth ride

We both never lost our sense of imagination

I hold his tiny hand smooth and soft

He holds my hand with his rough and big palm

“Have you’ve been this wise that young?” I asked him

“Hey you know yourself like I knew myself,” he says as he walks away

I look at him and before he’s gone I yell at him

“HEY WAIT!”

He turns and looks at me

And I simply say

“Thank you for your childhood,”

He runs back and hugs me one more time

He hold my face and are eyes open wise

Our tears dripping down like a leaking faucet

He closes his eyes

And so do I

I open them

I feel him fade

I open them, to find a rose petal

A rose Petal flowing to the floor

As I pick it up

It’s as soft as can be

Deaths Last Life

This world was a beautiful lie

This orb that floats in the void of nothin

Feeling it’s home from within

A weapon incubating from within

Destroying itself into dust

The last life I hold in my hand

A soul rose from the world it was created from

Growing its roots for a new life

This world that was created just to be destroyed by itself

A suicide that effected everything that had life in it

She didn’t deserve this… did she?…

Being the first soul here

Seeing her grow

Having thousands of years of grief leading to what has created me…

I shouldn’t have been here

I shouldn’t have been created

But it’s nice to have one last look again

Her beauty, the life she has let in

The life I take out from…

But I’m surprised the life she has created is capable of understanding how I feel

I was here to confort her

As she grief’s

The pain she has suffered

I give her peace

I give her acceptance

I give her love

She gave me life

I companied her death

Saving what legacy I was created from

I bring a new creation with what she has given me

Love Me Like A Woman

“Tho I know your love wasn’t meant for me

I am not a woman

But I wish…

I wish for you to love me like one

So it wouldn’t wound me

Knowing you could never love me as a man

My body is cursed keeping me away from you

A discord within my soul and the world around it

If only I was a woman

It would’ve been easy for you to love me

It would’ve been easy to love each other

But this breaks us apart

Love me like a woman

So it can be easy for me to love you

Tho this manly body is a disguise

A disguise hiding something gentle

Tho every time

Again and again

I end up hurting

A lonely pain I suffer

No one else can fathom

Fathom what feels like thousands of years of this pain

This feeling that kills me

destroying myself from the inside

Knowing I couldn’t win over your love

I am a man damn it

But I beg you my love

Love me like a woman

So it can be easy for me to love you

Tho this manly body is a disguise

A disguise hiding something gentle

It was the only reason you fell for me in the first place